it's been so long since my last update...its not that i have nothing to say, but there is just too much to say.but it seems like i had lost my words..since the beginning, this blog is all about me & her...it's her still..looking back, i've been sticking with her for 8++ years..too many happiness & tears along the way...i myself cannot believe we can last this long.so many thngs happened..
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this is what i wanna say to her..

awak,
setiap kali awk ckp awk sdh & x sampai ati nk lukakan ati die, sbb die tlalu sygkan awk & nak sgt idup dgn awk..smpai buat awk btl2 rase bsalah lukakan ati die & plh utk ttp dgn sy..setiap kali tu juga sy tahan air mata sy dr jatuh..setiap kali tu sy akn bkata2 dlm ati...betapa awk pentingkan prsaan org lain yg bru je hadir dlm idup awk, betapa awk x sanggup die meanngis bile awk plh sy, betapa awk tlalu prihatin dgn kesakitan die...tp awk lupe memandang sy kat sblh awk yg lebih skt dgn kecurangan awk..awk lupe kesakitan yg sy rse lbh lg dr yg die rse.awk x smpai ati nk lukakan ati die, tp knp awk tgamak lukakan ati sy yg dah 8 thun kongsi idup, kongsi ssh sng dng awk..setitis air mata die yg jtuh, buat awk rse bsalah seumur idup.tp awk lupa air mata sy yg dah bnyk jtuh setiap kli awk curang dgn sy..bkn sekali, bkn 2 kali, bkn 3 kali...dah bnyk kali..& setiap kli pun sy akn maafkan awk & terima awk blk dlm idup sy...betapa sshnye sy nk mengikis rse sakit dikhianati & dicurangi....sy tertanya2 ape slh sy smpai awk snggup lukakan ati sy dgn cara yg mcm tu....tp lps sy terima awk dgn kecurangan yg awk dah buat tu, sy yg akn makan ati menyaksikan mcm mana awk sedih ptus cinta..awk pilih sy & tpaksa lupakan die...sy dpt rse kesedihan yg awk rse sbb kehilangan die....itu lebih lg melukakan ati sy.sy tlalu sygkan awk smpai sy izinkan ati sy lalui bnda yg sama....bnda yg sy tau sgt2 melukakan ati sy...sy dpn mata awk, tp ati awk meratap sedih kehilangan die...knp sy kene lalui bnda tu lg?x boleh ke utk sekali ni...sekali ni je, awk pandang sy yg ade sblh awk ni..utk sekali ni, awk cube faham kesakitan yg sy rse...awk lupe sy kt sblh awk, sbb sy sntiase ade..sy x pnh pg jauh dr idup awk wpun berulang kli awk lukakan ati sy..awk lupa sbb sy selalu ada..